Care free life...Bullshit!

Humm...What a care free life people live! Let's just be self absorbed and selfish and blame everyone else for all the problems in our lives. Ok here we go...It's not my fault that these things happen,it not my fault work sucks, it not my fault my relationship sucks,it not my fault, all these things all these bad things are happening to me,why is this all happening! Can't be I am "PERFECT"!It seems we all have the knack of pushing off blame to others and not taking responibility for ourselves.An example here. A action causes a reaction.Good or bad. If asituation is bad get out,if your relationship is bad and isn't working have the guts to get out. End it and move on. Be the mature adult you want to claim to be and move on. It is ok to hurt some ones feelings they will get over it and right their ship.No one ever told me life was easy. It isn't it is hard and we all suffer right along through it. Life is only what you can make of it. We all have friends and family to lean on use them as a tool.If everyone is telling you "thats bad for you"or "He or she isn't the rightone for you"foe gods sake listen! Why would everyone lie to you? Ok...so if we need to be mature and want the life we need then we get to work and earn it.Quit blaming everyone else for or mistakes and quit bitching.Take responibility for ourselves. Listen to good advice.

Letters And Dreams...

I have been writing Mariah letters for 5 years now.I started this to keep in touch with her.I stopped when she moved in here and was gently prodded around Christmas to start them back up.I believe she misses reading them.and I believe that putting words to paper is a lost art. I can put my thoughts to paper and I believe get my message to her rather than a long winded and lengthy lecture! My letter was 6 pages and covered many things that we have come upon in our time together.

Snow Snow snow !!!!!!!!

It has been really a crappy winter here. We have had more snow than I care to see or let's say shovel! We are doing fine here and having a good time with the school for mariah and the work schuedule for me,Annie has been well and she is working few if any hours with her clients. The client list has shrunk to just two and she has been waiting on her Social security appeal now for two weeks. All things are concidered we are planning for warmer weather! we hear nothing from Lamoni. I wish things were better there.But I can't change that. i am trying to get my flickr link hooked in here so bear with me...

Hello

Sorry been very busy. I have been reasearching and preparing to vacation. We will be visiting Yellowstone natl. park for the first time.I have been making arrangements for four of us. I am raising Mariah and helping Annie. (my wife) I work at John Deere's here and raising a teenager,is no easy task! But we will be ok as long as we keep the lines of communivcation open and pick our battles wisely. I really wish i had the time to put down here what takes place in my life. I know that living with some one who is Bi-polar and dealing with a mental illness is a challange. I am to this day positive that I am doing the right things bye bring Mariah into our lives to live with us and she is comfortable here. I know that of all the people I know Ann trys harder than anyone I have ever known.She works hard and has a dogged determination to us her family..